life

when will i stop feeling so lonely and empty inside?

anyway work's fine. i'm actually enjoying it with all the interesting stuff to do. today i did a emcee job. was actually not bad at it cause my mdmS (all the big heads in my unit all female, so sad) were saying well done here and well done there. on the other hand, maybe it is just to give me encouragement. haha. but seriously, i've done lots of mc ing already, and really, the more you do it, the less frightening you get when you go on stage and the more natural your would words flow.anyway, i was talking to usha the other day and she was actually saying that if you enjoy your work, you'll excel in it, and i really enjoy it. going to st john's island tomorrow to oversee a workshop. will be some sort of a participant actually, cause there're not enough people going. anyway i was telling paul and sam the other day when we at esplanade, how nice if i could meet my gf (an imaginary one) at one fullerton when i return from st john's and have a romantic dinner there.

oh i just love music awards shows!! mtv music awards, grammy's, etc. the live performances are so mesmerising and i oh so so so love it. the grammy's opening act was especially great, with 5 different groups/singers singing one after another and they sort of had a live 'mesh-up', trading licks and choruses of each other's hits. then we can't never forget alicia keys. her voice is jus so... there're no words to describe it. more music awards. more more more!

hmm... let me see what i did this week. it was a lonely v-day - at home that is. on tue, i went aunt sandra's house to "bai nian" at night and had dinner with them plus ben and jacquelin. after that we went to "lau hei" at another coffee shop. haha my 3rd lau hei this year liao, with the first being at the manpower party and the second with my extended family.

wed and today are very hectic days, but i managed to squeeze time to visit wendy to "bai nian" for a short while together with steff during wed's lunch time. saw yvonne and liqi at the train station while waiting for the train today, so we took the train ride up together. and she said i look fat in my coporate wear. can you believe that??!!! shit man. too much ba kua and fried chicken wings liao.

i love my work!

i love music awards!

and when will i stop feeling so empty and lost?